There’s no denying that you’ll meet many people in your lifetime, but there will only be a few people that you will truly connect with. I remember reading an article saying that you’re likely to only fall in love three times in your lifetime. If that’s truly the case, I’ve already fallen in love twice and seem to be on journey to finding my third and final love. Lately, I’ve been trying not to chase after women. I’ve even put a halt to using dating apps (not like they were working anyway LOL!). So here I am, riding along on cruise control, focusing on me and just going with the flow. Like I mentioned in my last story, I’m neither looking nor waiting for the next girl to come along. However, if someone does cross paths with me, I’m going to be open-minded about it. As the great Wayne Gretzky once said, “You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take”.
As of now, I’ve been single for almost two years (however, not for the lack of trying). I’ve definitely put myself out there and explored the world of dating again. I’ve had women come and go, and I’ve had women who became really good friends. Regardless, I’ve come to accept that certain people aren’t meant to be in your life forever, so I appreciate them while they’re here, and learn to let go once their time in my story is up.
Recently, I’ve come to realize that while I’m not actively searching for a significant other, I do feel I’m in a place where I can consider the possibility of being in a relationship again. I’m not saying that it’s absolutely imperative that I find a girlfriend. I’m just saying that if the right girl comes along, I wouldn’t be opposed to starting an exclusive relationship with that individual if there was potential. However on the flip side, I’m a bit hesitant because I’m afraid of falling for someone and getting hurt. I’ve been there and done that. I fell for someone and things didn’t go the way I intended. Do I really want to go through that again? If you asked me a year ago, I wouldn’t even consider it. Now, I’m willing to give it a shot, but fuck it’s scary, you know? Being vulnerable and really putting yourself out there, risking another chance to be with someone…it’s a lot.
A question I asked myself the last time I let my wall down was, “Is this real?” It’s terrible, I know, but damn, if you’ve been through some shit, you’d have your guard up, too. Captain America has the super-soldier serum inside of him making him strong as shit, but he still has a shield, right? Yes, I just made a superhero reference explaining the intricacies of dating. What makes dating so difficult to understand is the simple fact that it’s not a logical equation. Dating isn’t math. There isn’t one solution to each problem you come across. It’s a game, and a complicated one at that. But with that said, if you’re willing to play, you need to keep playing no matter how many times you lose. If you fall, pick yourself back up and keep going. Stay in place and life will pass you by and that one person you’ve been yearning for, the one that will complement you, may never come your way. In the end, it’s all about choice. Are you willing to fall in love or are you going to hide behind your wall?
It’s your move.