His lips tasted like the words I always longed to hear, but knew he’d never say
Instead he’d just tease me of love and then push me away.
Touching me with the eagerness of a devil’s promise
I knew they were false truths because he could never be this honest.
I saw right through him and the fear he’d hide, masking his dismay under a mountain of pride.
A man like that would never confide that underneath it all, he was actually broken inside.
His heart greeted me like a reckless foster home, providing temporary shelter that I’d never truly know
Before I could even think of settling in, I’d find myself thrown out into the cold again.
He released his pain by hurting me, but I kept coming back because I was too blind to see
That I was addicted to a drug laced with uncertainty
And sometimes poison can taste so sweet.
I always left him with a lingering scent of desperation
For something more than a pit stop disguised as a destination
When I looked in his eyes, I saw my reflection glaring back at me
This girl was staring at me and eyeing my insecurities
She shook her head in disappointment and grief
Because I continued to love men who I knew couldn’t love me.